always running

right now, i hate everything. weird how things can change in a matter of 60 minutes.

going to stop being on the computer constantly. it makes me miserable because i think too much. this probably won't work though because i'll just end up thinking more. who knows. fuuuuck

Hi, Richmond

I'm in you right now. What's up? You have a really good restaurant with a delicious vegan burger that I enjoyed very much. I'm getting sick, but I picked up some Mucinex D and vitamin C tablets, so hopefully I can avoid getting sick until I get back home.

I'm going to sleep. I want to get wild this weekend.

Toronto visit

It's 2:23am and it's our last night in Toronto. It's been fun, but I'm ready to go home. Sarah is dead asleep next to me, and I wish I was. I don't know why I do this to myself. I stay up late, start thinking too much, then feel shitty for the rest of the night and end up going to bed upset and pissed off (usually at my own self). Fuck you, self-esteem. Fuck you, male species. Blah blah blah. I wish there was a way to get rid of paranoia, jealousy, self doubt, and self hatred. Any tips? Please? It's getting annooying.

Favorite part of the trip was being tourists and going to the CN Tower, and buying beer and getting drunk in the hotel room, just Sarah and I. I had a lot of fun, but I think I had my hopes up a little too high. No regrets!

1. I love Sarah more than anybody else.
2. I really really want a dog.
3. I wish it was summer.
4. Sarah and I have more fun than you.

=/=

good dudes does not equal good music

Toronto in t-minus 3 days.
Converge/Coliseum/Ceremony/Pulling Teeth/Rise and Fall in t-minus 7 days.
United Blood in t-minus 10 days.
Being broke.... well, I'm already there. This should be fun.

traveltraveltravel

Toronto next weekend. United Blood the weekend after that. I live for road trips!

someone else's words

"and i am putting all my faith in these doors keeping all my secrets safe and warm. it's not certain whether you are right or you are wrong. and it's not certain whether plane tickets will break my fall."


why is it that someone else can always describe how i feel, but when it comes to me trying, i'm a million miles away?

some list

my to do list:

1. stop buying clothes. or any other things that i don't need.
2. start saving money. be smart, emily!
3. read the book portnoy's complaint by philip roth. a good friend gave it to me, so it would be nice to give it back to him soon, so he's not missing it too much.
4. continue to work out more
5. eat sensibly and healthily
6. put my guitar up for sale on craigslist
7. go to NYC and visit will
8. finish watching all of seinfeld
9. focus more on school. fucking art history...
10. possibly change my "major" from fine art to liberal arts... i'm not excited about fine arts. at all.
11. go to toronto
12. explore and experience
13. do these things on this list.

the weakerthans are perfect right now. my best friend is home for spring break. fuck, i've missed her.

just to get away

I'm in need of an adventure. Bad. I want to go to the west coast. San Francisco to Portland, then to Seattle. I need to do this. I've been so bored lately. Lack of money really sucks. The open road and horizon have never seemed so appealing. Just to get away.

(thanks to flickr for the first image)