Does anybody ever hang out anymore? I've been so bored lately. A lot of people have moved/gone away, and that bums me out. But I don't think I have any right to be upset. I'm happy for all my friends who are doing what they want to do, where they want to be. I just misss themmm!!!
a list with pictures of people I miss/times I miss:
Eric, Cameron, Richie, and Willy. I don't see these boys very much, but they should know that I love them. PSC2!
Sam Weir in DC with Baltimore friends. I miss playing in that band, meeting new people, and just hanging out with everybody.
Back row: Renee, Kaitlin, Nina. Front row: Lauren, myself, Sarah.
Lady friends, I miss you.
Went to Syracuse on Wednesday for the first band practice with Jay Trovato, Mike Marr, and Petey Big Moves. I'm playing bass, and I'm really excited. It's like a Jimmy Eat World/Archers of Loaf/Hot Water Music mix with some rocky parts. I'm into it. Most importantly, though, I'm pumped to (hopefully) become better friends with all these dudes. With living in Rochester, and them living in Syracuse, we don't hang much so it'll be fun when we do. I hope this band works out!
Phil said that this reminds him of me. It's from a site called fmylife.com. Whenever I'm feeling down I look at this site. Never fails to cheer me up.
"Today, I stayed home, sick in bed. I had been sleeping on my arms. I got up quickly to grab the phone. My numb left arm rocketed and punched me in the (now cut) lip, which threw me off balance, making me smash my (now bloody) nose off the headboard. It was a telemarketer. FML"
I get to go to United Blood this year! Looking forward to get away and travel a bit. I love road trips more than anything. Kate rules and has booked the hotel and everything. I'm like a little school girl.
From now on I am going to be where I want, when I want, and with who I want. I'm only responsible for myself and in turn my own happiness and content. I'm done being miserable and apathetic. I'm beginning to think loneliness is a never ending feeling, so I'll just have to learn to deal with it.
Other than that, I need to save money in hopes of ever moving out. I like it here at home, but I'm getting an itch for something new, and I have a feeling a hair cut and new shoes won't cut it this time. I'd really like it if the gig with Trevor and Kaitlin works out. That would be really awesome, but who knows. Allison has first dibs, and who knows if Trevor is even going to stay at that house. Regardless, I'm looking for roommates. Interested?
I'm also only drinking water this week.
listen to Robert Johnson's King Of The Delta Blues Singers Vol. 2
"When was the last time you wanted to say it all to the right person? To have it all come out right, to surprise yourself at how together you can be. When was the last time you ever met someone who made you want to give it all to them? I mean give yourself to them. Where you couldn't express yourself enough - like you wanted to cut off one of your arms to be understood. That's it - you would cut your head off to have someone understand you. You know how pointless that one is. You know how many time you've smashed yourself to bits on the rocks."