goodbye 18, forever

I'm 19 as of 3 hours and 22 minutes ago. I can tell already that this is going to be a shitty day, and maybe even year.

go

i think i really want to get out of rochester. sorry, guys. i'm just getting restless.

ruins

i'm sorry i ruined everything. i'm sorry i ruined you, maybe. i'm sorry i ruined myself, positive. everything i touch turns to ash and falls to the floor. i've tried to sweep it under the rug, but it just gets kicked up again. now everything is a mess. i think i'm breaking down.

lovegame vs across the shields

Lady GaGa/Torche world tour '09 would be awesome

a love/hate relationship with upstate NY

I woke up with three inches of snow on my car. It's April and I wore a dress on Sunday. COOL, EARTH! This just makes me more anxious for road trips, summer, and all around better times. I'm jealous of people that keep moving and are traveling. I wish I could pack all of my belongings into just my car and leave. I don't know where I'd go, though! Sarah and I decided on Saturday that we are in fact going to drive out to California this summer.. we just don't know the specifics yet. We don't want to use hotels and we want to go hiking and live off of peanut butter and jelly. No, we're not hippies. Can't wait to swim in the Pacific Ocean!

Other news.... there is no other news. I hate standing still and I'm bored. That's it.

CALIFORNIA OR BUST! SUMMER '09!

always running

right now, i hate everything. weird how things can change in a matter of 60 minutes.

going to stop being on the computer constantly. it makes me miserable because i think too much. this probably won't work though because i'll just end up thinking more. who knows. fuuuuck